Peace in Heaven With Hensenshi/Divine Seion

[I Am Thor]

Reading all these posts about such a well respected player, brings such sorrow and regret that I myself never had the chance to meet him, it is one the greatest regrets that I shall ever have. It also brings such inspiration, that even friends and enemies come together to mourn the loss of one person, who touched so many lives through this game. It is my hope, that each and everyone of us here, can aspire to be like him, that an enemy can be a friend, I sit here now, writing this and knowing that my words can never attest to his legacy, but knowing that it lives on through all of his friends, ensures that Matt will never be forgotten, the lessons or advice given to those by him, will likely be passed on to others, in that respect, he becomes immortalized, for he will always live on through the many that knew him.

Respectfully and wishing well to all those that take the time to read this,
Matthew Thomas Nanamura

PS.
Rest in peace Matt, you will never be forgotten.

[tweetygirl]

I think I am finally to a point where I can make a rational post which can be understood.

My love goes out to Matt's family, real and online. To those who have posted here and said warm thoughts about his character just based on what we have put, you really did miss out on knowing a wonderful person. Thank you all for your words, as a close friend it comforts me reading what everyone has posted.

Lord Neqa'el (Gav) and I were very much his online family. I can honestly say there hasn't been one day since his death was confirmed that Gav and I haven't been feeling the overall emotion of Matt's life being ripped away/cut so short. It does give us the one reminder to make sure we do know how much we mean to each other as friends. I am glad at least Matt did know we loved him.

Yes, he is going to be out of pain.. and I am happy for that. The selfish human side of me wants him back to us SO bad that I cannot even begin to express it into words.

There are few regrets I have in life. The main one I am dealing with right now is that we didn't take the time to hang out in person. We spent hours on end on teamspeak/ventrilo talking and laughing, sometimes about life, sometimes game, mostly we were there for each other and I was proud to be his friend.

His family is from the same town I am from. We grew up in the same area, just 9 years apart in age/schooling. He went to school with people I knew. As a matter of fact I will be in Coral Springs, Florida this coming weekend visiting my friends and only wish I knew where to get in contact with them to stop by and personally see them and show them how much he meant to this community and how much he meant to his friends. He was living/stationed in NC not too far from where my aunts were living and when I was up there he was down here with his family for the holiday.

The full reality of his death I don't know if it really has kicked in yet. I think overall I am still in denial. At a hockey game on Saturday I went to take a pic and text him and had a realisation that this was something he and I would no longer be exchanging while we were out.

I will miss Matt dearly.

I will miss texting him with 1's and 15's to mass each other.
I will miss raiding him via text...

I miss my friend.
I loved my friend.

May you Rest In Peace and be comforted in heaven looking down on us and knowing how much you were loved. Feel free to haunt me anytime, I am comforted knowing someone is there to watch over me... say hi to my dad and sister...

Forever your friend.

Love,
Tanya

[I Am Thor]

Well put.

[Korruption]

very well put Tanya.

sorry i am late, i only heard about this properly today :S

Hens was a good guy.

i am disappointed i didn't talk to him more, i spoke to him a few times but not many.

you will be deeply missed by many





R.I.P MATT/Hensenshi

[bartleby]

I'm honestly not sure how to take the news. I spent tuesday actually crying, and today I've been in a dark, dark mood. There were a few times when I was in need that Tanya, Taxo, Jamie and Matt would stay up with me and make sure I was alright. Matt talked me through some stuff that frankly there are few people I could talk to about anyway. He was my friend, one of my best friends while I played the game, and like a brother to me in all the ways that mattered - and now that he's gone, I don't even get to thank him for all he did for me...And that hurts. I feel numb, and I feel a profound sense of loss and sorrow that I'm not well equipped to deal with.

Goodbye matt. I love you mate.

[Su]

Rest in Peace my friend. Nothing I can say will bring one back. However, I wish all of those involved the best of luck in recovery. God bless.

[Spacey]

oh crap... you know part of me was thinking that the whole Hensenshi passing was for his SGW character... just goes to show what the mind can begin to convince itself when it doesn't want to believe something.


I will miss Hensenshi greatly. I can't even remember the number of times he told me not to call him 'Henny'; the meaning of which I was ignorant of. It was that playful banter (at times just him informing me of my ignorance ), and his dedication to his friends and the game here here that I will remember most of him.

I've have 3 family members pass away in less than a year (one of which I directly witnessed the loss). As much as I want to say it gets easier... it really doesn't.

I think that with every person you know who passes on a small part of you dies with them - but - just as you lose a part of you, a part of them stays with you in the memories and joy that you've shared together. In some small way, they live on in the lives they've touched, paths they've crossed, and laughter they've shared over the short period of time they were here with us. It's those special memories that we take with us that make every moment we shared with someone meaningful and intangible. It is those memories that we must cherish like life itself. It's these joys and successes that we should cherish in our lives.

In the words of my good, good friend Alex Vlach (google him if you'd like):

"To laugh often, and much,
to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children,
to earn the appreciation of honest critics, and endure the betrayal of fake friends;
to appreciate beauty;
to find the best in others...
Most importantly... To leave the world a bit better...and to know that even one life has lived easier because you lived.
This is to have succeeded"



Thanks to Kikaz for directing me to this thread.

Kevin
(Spacey)