Re: Is it me or does a hypocrite love to see his words in print?
Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 11:34 pm
Brace youreslf, its gonna be a long one.
My own thread, for the first time, how exillerating! Long overdue if you ask me.
I allways spoke my mind and I seldome bite my toung when doing so. Both has a tendency to land me in hot water and make ma a somewhat poor diplomat. But tis who I am.
And as years pass our memmories get holes... O`s get tangled with N`s,O`neils become Noxes and one looses track of just how many times one was descended or what the bill was. May we all be forgiven of our lapsus linguae & memoriae, eh.
But experiances of the bigger moments in history leave behind a flavour in ones mouth, an impression & imprint, and that cannot be mistaken or misconstrued.
I started my SGW path as your »underling« etl, a part of the GA. Life was good back then, lots of perks, little realisation of their nature at the time. Then the CF war came. And it was in that war that a few things boiled up for the surface for the first but not only time... The »fickleness« of updates... The arbitrarity of awarding the »cheating« title to people... the ego obsessive nature of these coalitions, and the ruthlessness in pursuing opposing induviduals on even a personal scale. Alliances got disbanded under gunpoint, wich I think was the first at the time. (TA,proud as ever back then, being the only one to refuse, bought themselves the first payed ticket out after a couple more weeks in the frying pan if I recall.) List were made of who was barred certain ingame actions like leading alliances. People were not at all bluntly »suggesting« to others they leave »for the good of the community« and bollox like that.
And that last occurance was the very first time I think I spoke out against you/(your) policies, biting the hand that at that time still fed and sheltered me. As it turned out, twas the start of a »nasty« habbit I`ve been unable to shake ever since.
Time rolled on our paths »diverged«, and eventually, GA gave way to CoP and the unparalleled homogeny of the game and forums. I was sticking in my 2 euro cents about wars conducted, random massings etc. etc. back when saying the wrong/crytical thing of your group got people massed on the spot for their trouble (I still remember twas RepliJake that popped my cherry in that respect) & never hid under a pseudonym to voice my oppinion. Back in that day massing allso ment something, not as much as in the past, but more than today. I never build expendable stats for that reason, but I never held my peace when I had something to say either. And I had my opposing say about personal attacks, choking of ascended, random ID generators, bloody Sundays, MAD 1hit on us and we nuke on both servers but we farm you all day policies & variety of other topics. None were ever pleasant to your ear.
Tome rolled on further and criticall mass was reached by you I suppose... when a bunch of slovenians, in no small part coming from yourown ranks broke away and formed TL twas the spark needed to ignite the flame that was CIA. Villified and abused for their nationality, the group that formed TL and declared their intent not to bow down found themselves besieged by your coalition within days of its creation. Slowly but surely, as their resistance provided an example others trickled in and we all know how it ended. I joined TL after the war, at the behest of the friend Blue that brought me into this game at the very beginning.
But I know now that people do not change. Some of those that came from CoP brought a bit too much of CoP with them. I never appreciated the »goauld playstyle« and never masked that fact, imo it is an exuse for sadistic and illintented tendencies people let loose under the guise of annonimity. As suh playstyle allienated TL from people I spoke against it feverously. Two blocks formed inside the alliance and threathened to implode it completley. And it was ultimalty I who came up with the notion TDL be created from within TL by the elements with such a playstyle.
Alas it turned out it only slowed down the issues that culminated in a formation of a coalition against us and our reaction to it.
Tekki will remember that despite everything we may disagree on, that war was not started out of financial motivation on either side. But it got ugly, that much is true. As it concluded alliances were given terms and let out, but tekkis alliance was singled out as the percieved »ringleader« and treated more harshly, thoe disbandement was never our goal. Reparations cameinto the mix, and thoe I was not at all enthusiastic about it I share a portion of the blame for holding my peace and going with the flow pitching into the frey on the forums, being a regular & active member at the time. But somewhere allong the line that degenerated into a sheere annimocity between tekki and certain induviduals on our side (and I do not think the brdavs-tekki short circuit was the main one heh). Same annimocity that likely caused AEU singeling out in the first place. Stubborness on both ends cuased the number to spin out of control exponantionally as words were exchanged, for the sole reason to spite/punish and I have no quarell admitting that was indeed the darkest moment in TLEs history at the time & to date.
I carried my share of the blame then and I carry all of it via guilt of association today. For all the members that you put forward as the example of TLs wrongdoing and evil status today have left more than a year and a half ago.
What one of them did to with your forum account months into his leave I do not know. Perhaps it was your charming misdemeanor and loving relationship you two had that spurred him on. And as for the other, he moved on with his life as far as I knew, not banned and not have joined you as you wished. What they both did as part of the educators with your group I allways have, and allways will, condemn. I consider them my friends to this day, but they more than anyone know from our frictions that on what they did we did not allways see eye to eye.
But I`m here and I still speak out and I take the good and the bad that my tag brings with it. Cos in my mind the good still outweigs the bad by a long way. TL was concieved in conflict against your powerblock and rallied the popular movement against despots in a trully poetic fashion. True, it`s light dimmed somewhat due to the subsequent mistakes but it is still a symbol. Which you know, for the only alliance in TF today to not have been offered terms of surrender more than once is TL. All others have appointed diplomats to them and get »massaged« weekly to give in. Not TL, the spark must be extinguished as an example.
But for my part, I do not intent to compromise again. As long as I post I will rip into actions, present and past I deem »ripworthy«. And as long as I am ingame I will be TL, if only to serve as a reminder to people that there were people once, and are still today, that would play this game and post on ths forum free from the invisible hand of one of your supercoalitions.
Looking back at my sgw career and conduct, I am content. My conscience is clear. I never willingly abused a fellow sgw player from a vantage of ingame power or instigated/advocated it. I as a player have never been imbroiled in any abuse/extort/educate/take advantage of or any other questionable situations. I`ve spoken out for the little guy and I continue to do so today (leave perg guys alone! lol).
And I know that in all but one cases I`ve done what I thought was right&decent, and in the one I did not I fess up to the **Filtered** of it, pure and simple, it was horrible and I likely did not do everything I could to prevent it, like walking out.
So bad mistakes, I made a few(one), I've had my share of sand kicked in my face(on the count of it) - But I've come through. (lol couldnt help it but go Freddie M on you, epic stache).
Under the line, as I `ve said, people don`t fundamentaly change etl. You can burry your actions and your nature under a years time of absence, new members,reinterpretations & pointing your finger at me but the past and karma catch up with you sooner or later. I`m fine with that personally. But I can understand why you`re sprinting as fast as you can to stay ahaed of as much of it as you can. I witnessed it.
The fact you get the vibe I`m stalking you is coincidental. All the paths lead to Rome they say, and a lot of the dirty little practices and secrets in SGW have fingers leading to you. It is not I who stalk you, it`s your illustrious past - as you try to pass yourself as one without one. The crusades I conduct and my hypocracy is thus pointing out your hypocracy.
So if you think that your words and this thread will shut me up any more than RepliJakes massings could all those years back, you are very much mistaken. I`ve got my sin incarnate in tekki. You, in a manner of speaking, have me.
My own thread, for the first time, how exillerating! Long overdue if you ask me.
I allways spoke my mind and I seldome bite my toung when doing so. Both has a tendency to land me in hot water and make ma a somewhat poor diplomat. But tis who I am.
And as years pass our memmories get holes... O`s get tangled with N`s,O`neils become Noxes and one looses track of just how many times one was descended or what the bill was. May we all be forgiven of our lapsus linguae & memoriae, eh.
But experiances of the bigger moments in history leave behind a flavour in ones mouth, an impression & imprint, and that cannot be mistaken or misconstrued.
I started my SGW path as your »underling« etl, a part of the GA. Life was good back then, lots of perks, little realisation of their nature at the time. Then the CF war came. And it was in that war that a few things boiled up for the surface for the first but not only time... The »fickleness« of updates... The arbitrarity of awarding the »cheating« title to people... the ego obsessive nature of these coalitions, and the ruthlessness in pursuing opposing induviduals on even a personal scale. Alliances got disbanded under gunpoint, wich I think was the first at the time. (TA,proud as ever back then, being the only one to refuse, bought themselves the first payed ticket out after a couple more weeks in the frying pan if I recall.) List were made of who was barred certain ingame actions like leading alliances. People were not at all bluntly »suggesting« to others they leave »for the good of the community« and bollox like that.
And that last occurance was the very first time I think I spoke out against you/(your) policies, biting the hand that at that time still fed and sheltered me. As it turned out, twas the start of a »nasty« habbit I`ve been unable to shake ever since.
Time rolled on our paths »diverged«, and eventually, GA gave way to CoP and the unparalleled homogeny of the game and forums. I was sticking in my 2 euro cents about wars conducted, random massings etc. etc. back when saying the wrong/crytical thing of your group got people massed on the spot for their trouble (I still remember twas RepliJake that popped my cherry in that respect) & never hid under a pseudonym to voice my oppinion. Back in that day massing allso ment something, not as much as in the past, but more than today. I never build expendable stats for that reason, but I never held my peace when I had something to say either. And I had my opposing say about personal attacks, choking of ascended, random ID generators, bloody Sundays, MAD 1hit on us and we nuke on both servers but we farm you all day policies & variety of other topics. None were ever pleasant to your ear.
Tome rolled on further and criticall mass was reached by you I suppose... when a bunch of slovenians, in no small part coming from yourown ranks broke away and formed TL twas the spark needed to ignite the flame that was CIA. Villified and abused for their nationality, the group that formed TL and declared their intent not to bow down found themselves besieged by your coalition within days of its creation. Slowly but surely, as their resistance provided an example others trickled in and we all know how it ended. I joined TL after the war, at the behest of the friend Blue that brought me into this game at the very beginning.
But I know now that people do not change. Some of those that came from CoP brought a bit too much of CoP with them. I never appreciated the »goauld playstyle« and never masked that fact, imo it is an exuse for sadistic and illintented tendencies people let loose under the guise of annonimity. As suh playstyle allienated TL from people I spoke against it feverously. Two blocks formed inside the alliance and threathened to implode it completley. And it was ultimalty I who came up with the notion TDL be created from within TL by the elements with such a playstyle.
Alas it turned out it only slowed down the issues that culminated in a formation of a coalition against us and our reaction to it.
Tekki will remember that despite everything we may disagree on, that war was not started out of financial motivation on either side. But it got ugly, that much is true. As it concluded alliances were given terms and let out, but tekkis alliance was singled out as the percieved »ringleader« and treated more harshly, thoe disbandement was never our goal. Reparations cameinto the mix, and thoe I was not at all enthusiastic about it I share a portion of the blame for holding my peace and going with the flow pitching into the frey on the forums, being a regular & active member at the time. But somewhere allong the line that degenerated into a sheere annimocity between tekki and certain induviduals on our side (and I do not think the brdavs-tekki short circuit was the main one heh). Same annimocity that likely caused AEU singeling out in the first place. Stubborness on both ends cuased the number to spin out of control exponantionally as words were exchanged, for the sole reason to spite/punish and I have no quarell admitting that was indeed the darkest moment in TLEs history at the time & to date.
I carried my share of the blame then and I carry all of it via guilt of association today. For all the members that you put forward as the example of TLs wrongdoing and evil status today have left more than a year and a half ago.
What one of them did to with your forum account months into his leave I do not know. Perhaps it was your charming misdemeanor and loving relationship you two had that spurred him on. And as for the other, he moved on with his life as far as I knew, not banned and not have joined you as you wished. What they both did as part of the educators with your group I allways have, and allways will, condemn. I consider them my friends to this day, but they more than anyone know from our frictions that on what they did we did not allways see eye to eye.
But I`m here and I still speak out and I take the good and the bad that my tag brings with it. Cos in my mind the good still outweigs the bad by a long way. TL was concieved in conflict against your powerblock and rallied the popular movement against despots in a trully poetic fashion. True, it`s light dimmed somewhat due to the subsequent mistakes but it is still a symbol. Which you know, for the only alliance in TF today to not have been offered terms of surrender more than once is TL. All others have appointed diplomats to them and get »massaged« weekly to give in. Not TL, the spark must be extinguished as an example.
But for my part, I do not intent to compromise again. As long as I post I will rip into actions, present and past I deem »ripworthy«. And as long as I am ingame I will be TL, if only to serve as a reminder to people that there were people once, and are still today, that would play this game and post on ths forum free from the invisible hand of one of your supercoalitions.
Looking back at my sgw career and conduct, I am content. My conscience is clear. I never willingly abused a fellow sgw player from a vantage of ingame power or instigated/advocated it. I as a player have never been imbroiled in any abuse/extort/educate/take advantage of or any other questionable situations. I`ve spoken out for the little guy and I continue to do so today (leave perg guys alone! lol).
And I know that in all but one cases I`ve done what I thought was right&decent, and in the one I did not I fess up to the **Filtered** of it, pure and simple, it was horrible and I likely did not do everything I could to prevent it, like walking out.
So bad mistakes, I made a few(one), I've had my share of sand kicked in my face(on the count of it) - But I've come through. (lol couldnt help it but go Freddie M on you, epic stache).
Under the line, as I `ve said, people don`t fundamentaly change etl. You can burry your actions and your nature under a years time of absence, new members,reinterpretations & pointing your finger at me but the past and karma catch up with you sooner or later. I`m fine with that personally. But I can understand why you`re sprinting as fast as you can to stay ahaed of as much of it as you can. I witnessed it.
The fact you get the vibe I`m stalking you is coincidental. All the paths lead to Rome they say, and a lot of the dirty little practices and secrets in SGW have fingers leading to you. It is not I who stalk you, it`s your illustrious past - as you try to pass yourself as one without one. The crusades I conduct and my hypocracy is thus pointing out your hypocracy.
So if you think that your words and this thread will shut me up any more than RepliJakes massings could all those years back, you are very much mistaken. I`ve got my sin incarnate in tekki. You, in a manner of speaking, have me.
