IM LEAVING SGW FOR GOOD!!
Posted: Tue Sep 02, 2008 6:38 pm
After a few years of being here.. I have finally decided it is time to move on.
I am married to a woman I love and we share a little girl I love just as much. I need to find my way and the only way I am going to do that is to do it somewhere else.
In march 2005, I was living in a white house with a girl and a newborn daughter. I spent a lot of time on here. Too much time! I was immersed in the politics of this game and my relationships in life began to suffer. Games are games; or so they should be! In this day in age though, games are more than a 2D cookie cut specter. Games are entire civilizations with their own laws and celebrities. With their own politicians and serfs. They have become a way for us to excape but for some of us they become a substitute for life and today I chose to live.
It came to pass and I left that woman in 06 for the last time. I still talk to my daughter Xoicha but she lives in Dallas TX and I in Fayetteville AR. I see her every summer and it has broken my heart in a way that I will never be able to repair. I am forever shattered. Something is always elusive.
No matter how much Resources I have here, how much covert I can muster I still have to accept the fact that what I have in life is more valuable than anything.
It's 2008 and I am still "ingame"
I got married and had another beautiful baby girl. Her name is Ava Adore. I named her after a Smashing Pumpkins song and she is my redemption. This is my chance to shine, to show a little being that she can have two healthy parents under one roof. I will have no one to vie with when it comes to the raising of my child. No ex to give my child a bad haircut I don't like, no ex to move away and decide which school she will attend without my imput, no ex to influence who my little girl will become lacking my constant support. This is my chance to be a father and stand right beside a mother. This is my LAST chance to have a functioning family.
I went to Tulsa Welding School and had a complete nervous breakdown. My wife moved back in February and it was tough trying to make life work alone without her. I left Tulsa in late July. We were fighting in a long distance marriage, I had become an alcoholic and a drug addict, and I was losing touch with reality. After seven rough months of fighting with my wife, In tulsa and on a telephone, I realized that I had to forfeit a dream for another. I had lost the battle of Tulsa and It was time to come back home to Arkansas
COINCIDENTIALLY, IN THAT SAME WHITE HOUSE..
So here I am, making the same mistakes!
My wife and I got into a fight tonight about this game. For the last two weeks I have been really involved with the Maelstrom alliance. My disability check was canceled three weeks ago and I have been searching for a job restlessly. In between the job hunt, I was on this game. Immersed here again! This place really sucks you in!! My wife has brought up the fact that I do spend a lot of time online and I need to put things in focus now before my marriage goes to crap..
I found a job today from ten at night to seven in the morning. It's going to be really tough to play this game anymore. My free time must be spent sleeping or with my two girls so after all this time, I have to admit that its time to go.
Thank you, oh community!!
I've been an anti social and a loner since the day I was born! Thank you for making me feel like a celebrity for a change! It meant the world to step out of myself and form alliances, to form "followings" of sorts.
At a time I felt like I held this game in the palm of my hand. I knew everyone, I knew every secret. That took a lot of time out of everyday to uphold that reputation, so it came with a price.
Maelstrom gave me something to fight for and If I chose to stay, I could have held this game in the palm of my hand again just like the good old days, but it's not worth the price Id have to pay today.
I AM GIVING MY ACCOUNT TO MY ONLY OFFICER. I'M SENDING MY LOGIN DETAILS AND BEGGING HIM TO ACCEPT. FROM THIS DAY FOREWARD. ID 9570 WILL NOT BE ME!! I"M ALSO GIVING MY FORUM ACCOUNT PASSWORD TO MY OFFICER, INCASE HE WANTS TO KEEP THE NAME THE SAME AND USE THIS SIGNATURE.
Goodbye friends, even enemies! You're all friends in my books!
Take care and enjoy life!
Travis-
I am married to a woman I love and we share a little girl I love just as much. I need to find my way and the only way I am going to do that is to do it somewhere else.
In march 2005, I was living in a white house with a girl and a newborn daughter. I spent a lot of time on here. Too much time! I was immersed in the politics of this game and my relationships in life began to suffer. Games are games; or so they should be! In this day in age though, games are more than a 2D cookie cut specter. Games are entire civilizations with their own laws and celebrities. With their own politicians and serfs. They have become a way for us to excape but for some of us they become a substitute for life and today I chose to live.
It came to pass and I left that woman in 06 for the last time. I still talk to my daughter Xoicha but she lives in Dallas TX and I in Fayetteville AR. I see her every summer and it has broken my heart in a way that I will never be able to repair. I am forever shattered. Something is always elusive.
No matter how much Resources I have here, how much covert I can muster I still have to accept the fact that what I have in life is more valuable than anything.
It's 2008 and I am still "ingame"
I got married and had another beautiful baby girl. Her name is Ava Adore. I named her after a Smashing Pumpkins song and she is my redemption. This is my chance to shine, to show a little being that she can have two healthy parents under one roof. I will have no one to vie with when it comes to the raising of my child. No ex to give my child a bad haircut I don't like, no ex to move away and decide which school she will attend without my imput, no ex to influence who my little girl will become lacking my constant support. This is my chance to be a father and stand right beside a mother. This is my LAST chance to have a functioning family.
I went to Tulsa Welding School and had a complete nervous breakdown. My wife moved back in February and it was tough trying to make life work alone without her. I left Tulsa in late July. We were fighting in a long distance marriage, I had become an alcoholic and a drug addict, and I was losing touch with reality. After seven rough months of fighting with my wife, In tulsa and on a telephone, I realized that I had to forfeit a dream for another. I had lost the battle of Tulsa and It was time to come back home to Arkansas
COINCIDENTIALLY, IN THAT SAME WHITE HOUSE..
So here I am, making the same mistakes!
My wife and I got into a fight tonight about this game. For the last two weeks I have been really involved with the Maelstrom alliance. My disability check was canceled three weeks ago and I have been searching for a job restlessly. In between the job hunt, I was on this game. Immersed here again! This place really sucks you in!! My wife has brought up the fact that I do spend a lot of time online and I need to put things in focus now before my marriage goes to crap..
I found a job today from ten at night to seven in the morning. It's going to be really tough to play this game anymore. My free time must be spent sleeping or with my two girls so after all this time, I have to admit that its time to go.
Thank you, oh community!!
I've been an anti social and a loner since the day I was born! Thank you for making me feel like a celebrity for a change! It meant the world to step out of myself and form alliances, to form "followings" of sorts.
At a time I felt like I held this game in the palm of my hand. I knew everyone, I knew every secret. That took a lot of time out of everyday to uphold that reputation, so it came with a price.
Maelstrom gave me something to fight for and If I chose to stay, I could have held this game in the palm of my hand again just like the good old days, but it's not worth the price Id have to pay today.
I AM GIVING MY ACCOUNT TO MY ONLY OFFICER. I'M SENDING MY LOGIN DETAILS AND BEGGING HIM TO ACCEPT. FROM THIS DAY FOREWARD. ID 9570 WILL NOT BE ME!! I"M ALSO GIVING MY FORUM ACCOUNT PASSWORD TO MY OFFICER, INCASE HE WANTS TO KEEP THE NAME THE SAME AND USE THIS SIGNATURE.
Goodbye friends, even enemies! You're all friends in my books!
Take care and enjoy life!
Travis-
