As I posted in the war topic, I have been going through HELL recently, literally.
My girlfriend, who I have been with for 3 years, was killed in a hit and run car incident.. the driver drove off and hasn't been found yet. As you can understand I have been under loads of stress, and I have been depressed, and very upset. My dad was extremely offensive to me when he told me to get over it, and so, maybe regretting it now, I punched him and broke his nose.. So now my dad, mum, brother, and sister hate me, and my girlfriend is gone forever, last night I considered suicide, and I think I fell asleep while drinking..
When the person is found that did this to Gemma (my girl), I was going to make his life hell too.. as any man would naturally do. The first people I told about this were the guys in TO, just a few minutes ago, since I really don't have anyone else to talk to right now, they showed me the other side.. I would regret, even though it might feel good, getting revenge..
Now I am lost, totally, I am stuck in a house with a family that hate me, the person closest to me is gone, and I don't know what to do, where to go..
At the end of the war I will quit the game, the stuff in my account will be split between everyone who has helped me on my journey, more will probably go to those in my alliance, my ingame family.. a family that don't hate me. The shell account I will keep for fun, maybe I will come back some day.. but not for a while.
I want to thank The Order, the best alliance in the game, I don't give a flying modded squishie what anyone says, you guys have kept me in the game for the last few months, and now your pretty much keeping me in real life.
Have a good christmas everyone, because I know I probably won't..
I felt this had to be done, get it off my chest.. some of you might not care, or think im some kind of retard, well I probably think the same about you.
Thanks,
Sad but kind regards,
Ben.
For Rome!
